black hole theory

you once told me that sometimes, after falling all the way down and climbing back out of the black hole a few times, it starts to feel almost like some kind of extreme sport for people as damaged in the head as the two of us.

for once, though, i did not wait for somebody else to throw me into the black hole.

i climbed to the edge on my own and let go.

i chose the fall before anyone else could choose it for me, i gave myself to the dark before another person could put their hands on my back and send me there again.